I am struggling at the moment. First world problem. Nothing devastating but something that is making me uncomfortable.
How do you identify yourself? Your occupation; your role as a mother, father, sister, brother, son, daughter, grandmother or grandfather; your hobby; or your likes and dislikes?
You see I am a psychologist and I am mighty proud of that fact. It suits my personality. Some days I even find it hard to distinguish between what is my personality and what is the “psychologist” they have merged that much.
The reason I am now struggling, well to be honest its been a few years, probably since the birth of my second child. I have realised that I just dont have the emotional energy to do both mothering and psychology concurrently to the best of my ability as unfortunately I feel like I’m doing both half-arsed (technical term). Herein lies the problem. What do I do? Sure I’d love to be a stay at home mum but that money tree doesn’t seem to be growing out the back and those numbers havent come up in tattslotto (would help if I put in for tatts then we may have a chance to win) But seriously, I see alot of inspirational women who are able to combine both – being work at home mums. The problem is I can’t seem to find something that I can do from home with my qualifications that keep me as interested as psych does. I really like problems and helping people work their way through them and helping them find their own answers. Actually, I think I am good at it too. (Dont mind me blowing my own trumpet). But holding the space for someone to do this is the emotionally taxing part.
Really though I don’t need to ask the question – what do I do as I know what I want to do. It is the other issue that I touched upon before: who am I? Who would I be? A piece of me would be missing if I didn’t call myself a psychologist. I truly like that part of me. I think sometimes it describes alot of me too.
What do people say when they are onto their second career? Does their previous career get removed or forgotten about? There is so many skills that your occupation provides you with and then it would be like it is irrelevant. A worry I think about is that I may have a discussion in 5 years time and people may think well who are you to be qualified to be speaking on such a topic – but over 10 years experience and an intense experience at that will never be forgotten and made me the person I am today.
I’d really like to hear from you. Have you changed what you do? Were you someone else in a “past life”? How do you identify yourself? Is there a part of yourself that you like to identify yourself as?