Sometimes things happen that rock you to your core. Make you question every part of your cellular being…and then make you question again. Fuq make you question and find no answers for weeks on end. Not only do you process the event that occurred but it’s one almighty reset button, which I spoke of here. This is like your hard drive crashing on your computer, wiped of what you know and thought you knew. Not only though does this bring forward all your thoughts, beliefs or feelings that relate to the issue in question but hold up, it’s one of those moments that brings everything else that had been hiding repressed in the dusty corners of your mind like grief, loss, hurts, or even other events that needed another layer processed. Some days it’s like your brain says “hell he/she is crying about this, may as well get that other unresolved issue out the way”. The floodgates opened and like the riverbank wondering if it can hold space for this extra volume, you wonder how much more you have in reserve to keep your head above water. It’s times like these *cue Foo Fighters* that you feel you keep getting barrelled under water. This is when people can get depressed and anxious. The feelings are so overwhelming, the respite at the surface is minimal when you do get up for air and the shoreline seems so far away. This is healing. Healing is not pretty and nice. It’s not fluffy and sweet. Healing hurts. It’s raw, it’s harsh, it aches, at times it is unrelenting. Be with it. Challenge that fear and anxiety every inch but ask that pain what it wants to teach you. Process, question and review the thoughts that come up and your thinking. All of it, even the “stuff” from the dusty corners. Why? The tomorrow “you” will be enriched because of it and your light will shine even brighter.